Tension

Flights of fancy adrift endlessly in this molded scoundrel.
The gilded eyes, the shifting movements so scurrilous in their desires.
Silent steps behind the unknown, forward leaps into the unneeded.

Seeping sores claim knarled fingers and fresh skin peeks shyly beneath wounds of battle and despair.
Winds blow and the stomach once again remits acid burning refuse into the soundless chords of a throat long left still.
Shaking, shaking, shaking......with a nary a wind moving.

Bold stances and commitments left for the brave as this is too much for such a nave.
Wounds weep as the deep cuts heal (we all know how deeply words cut),
No one , not a word, not a breath could be heard.

This is what your tension does to me.

I thank God you're finally gone.

What Reconnecting Does to a Heart

Familiar voices ring the bell.
I have become so comfortable with being alone.
No ties to the outside world , just me and my mine safely insulated here.
So many mixed emotions, so glad to speak with you , yet so scared as well.

Let's laugh about old times and share some of the new that have transpired since our last meeting. Let's chat about the light stuff, but I have one unspoken request, PLEASE do not touch me there.

Don't touch the soft underbelly of my heart. Don't test my stonewalled defenses.
Reach around but not through my mind so burnt by substance and so safe from the past.
I didn't walk away, I ran. I survived in spite of your earnest wishes for my failure.

My actions fuel many a tongue and many a finger remains limber in it's high arching point in my direction. Many an eye has beheld what I reveal and so few a mind is knowledgeable of what lies between.

I , in your eyes or book (whichever or both if preferred) I have been less than for times before and times to come. I want you to know that I have blessed you with the belief that you matter. Your condemnations always flowing, your false words and calm pretense rested upon deafening ears and cynical lobes.

The air you speak is but food for the trees and plants surrounding us. To them, you are a giver of life. To me, you are likening to a visit from a darkening force that I shiver to have flow around me.

Many think they have it figured out. They stare in wonder at my bombastic displays of discontent. They muse on my various idiosyncrasies while bemused at it's wittiness and divine rhythms. It's as though I have no fear, nary a care and no need for a single puncture into my biosphere.

But remember, you are but a guest in my arena, so PLEASE don't touch me there.

Stare not across the misty grounds of my castle as the sun rises, for the dirt mounds of buried pain and hurt remain and not a single blade of grass has grown upon them. The beleaguered caretakers stand with shovels near each mound holding sustenance consisting of moldy sandwiches and stagnate coffee. Graying temples gleam against their pale skin and the cragginess of their faces fade into the gloaming. Like Centurians at some magical gate, they stand ready, waiting for the Mistress of the grounds to give the command of unearthing and tilling the wasted spaces.

I wish for nothing more than a casual chat and then a polite goodbye. A nice tea and no tour is available. Feel free to complement the space, but never ask to view it. Take it as you imagine it to be. For the view is a grand one. Wide open spaces with sweeping glances and everything in it's place. A castle fit for a Queen but resided in by the Jester.

Your stay will be a short one and you will leave feeling loved. You will compliment me to others on how wonderful things are for me. You will live my life for me in your words to others ears.

I will continue on content with my reign. I have never wished to be Queen, but I have wished to reside in the manor house and not the dungeon. Hanging here in chains, my mind once again ebb tides. The dress of lace the color of antique finery with its glorious hues of red and eggshell flows in the wind as I run fast and free across fields of wildflowers. My feet safe on the ground I run and cushioned by the mossy texture of the path. My eyes wide and my mouth open to breath in the precious fresh air of new starts and new dreams.

So PLEASE don't touch me there, you may wake me from my reverie. I am happy here, this is where I wish to stay. To you it may seem a dungeon, but to me, its all I have ever known.

Dr. Chuck Missler Blows Your Mind!

As I stated earlier, I want to discuss Nephilim and Alien Abductions according to The Bible. Try as I might, every time I tried to write about the issue, I found that Dr. Missler just does it so perfectly I have come to realize that you simply cannot top the Missler! Enjoy this video series and it is on an autoplay reel, so it will play right through. Pay special attention to the slide show going on behind Dr. Missler as it is pivotal to the understanding of this sensitive issue. I am sure after you are done watching this, you will be asking your Pastor..Sethite or Angel view? Enjoy!

(All copyright permission has been granted to Karen Meister from www.khouse.org for this rebroadcast/publication)

A Whole New View

Seems these days all I get done is thanking my friend Josh! I have been praying for about a year now for the Lord to bless me with a really smart, funny and totally committed Christian friend. While I meant geographically close, I have come to realize that when it comes to friends, the miles mean nothing with blessing of the technological age.

Last year, I was introduced to Josh due to a rather unpleasant experience we shared without even knowing each other. We both came across this truly evil spirit in a woman. While she professed to be one thing, her life, speech, actions and intent showed her to be far from her "persona" she sought others to see. She was a malevolent individual with destruction in her heart and on her lips. She sought to seek and destroy all that was good and righteous in one's walk with the Lord. Every hypocrisy, lying word and snare lay upon her heart when she found fresh prey. Her prey? New Christians. However, she really is immaterial to the story...or is she?

One of my favorite websites is www.khouse.org home to Dr. Chuck Missler's ministry. Understand that Dr. Missler is a freaking genius and then enjoy from there! This man has made it his personal mission in life to study the Word and bring it forth in ways I would have never dreamed possible. Dr. Missler and Josh each have one thing in common, they brought The Bible ALIVE to me! So many years have been wasted reading the words and never grasping the concept, the mysteries and the revelations that this living , breathing work of God has in store for us all!

I recently began a study on Nephilim and Alien Encounters. While this would take days to explain, I will make it more succinct this time. I have felt truly inspired to take on this topic and my future writings for the remainder of November will be about these issues. Should November not hold enough days for me, then I will burst into December with vigor and renewed fortitude. I know you may be wondering what in the world does Alien Encounters have to do with Christianity? Well you will be floored when you find out! I think I finally have my answer as to why this woman whom Josh and I both experienced is the way she is.

So stay tuned and we will learn together and I pray and hope that you too will have that moment when suddenly that precious work of God just explodes and comes truly ALIVE to you as well!

Stay tuned...

Yep...She's Nice!

I'm so very excited about this site! I have received so many nice emails already and I hope I can keep up the good work you all are asking me to do! Lol. I wanted to answer a question that someone asked me about Ann Coulter.

I produce an Internet radio show called "The Black Conservative Show" on Blogtalkradio.com. On said show, we have had many great guests and one of them was Ms. Ann Coulter. Now try as I might, I was trying to figure out this woman. Everyone calls her "hateful, mean, disgusting, virulent and arrogant". Really? I dealt with her and you couldn't be farther from the truth! The woman who appeared on our show was congenial, witty, smart and so sweet! She has a wicked sense of humor and a God-given intellect that she uses to it's fullest potential. So where's the mean? Ohhhhh, you must mean when she won't capitulate to the liberal stance of Victimology? (Yeah, that's a Karenism! You will see many of those! Lol)

First let me explain Victimology. That is where being or finding a victim in order to excuse vile, disgusting and degrading behavior becomes one's theology. Get it? Victim+Theology=Victimology!

First off, let me explain something to you all. I was a Liberal of the highest caliber for a short period in my life until the saving mercy and grace of our dear Lord saw fit to bestow Salvation upon the wretch that is me. My eyes were opened then to the deception that had been carefully crafted upon me throughout the years. What Ann Coulter does is cut out the middle man and shows you right upfront the malarkey this liberal front is spoon feeding you!

We all the know the statement that truth hurts, right? Well, Ann Coulter out of love hits you in the belly with facts that HURT. So, for those who want to know the FACTS, Ann is a delightful, down to earth, compassionate and caring woman who I am grateful I have been given the pleasure of being acquainted with!

I hope this dispels any myths presented about her now and in the future.

Stay Tuned....

The 2 Party Paradigm is Simply Good Vs. Evil

Although our White House sought to convince us as Americans, that the races won by Conservatives this past week were unimportant, the informed voter is now clapping their hands in anticipation of REAL change.

I have been inundated on the radio show I produce in the evenings with “Just give our current Administration a chance!”. Well, I have. Let’s see what they have accomplished so far.

1. Pelosi proudly proclaims that she will bully Senate to get public funded abortions.

2. Our national deficit is now quadruple what it was just a decade ago (we have to give ol’ Georgie his credit for this one as well)

3. National Healthcare with “Death Counseling for Seniors”.

4. Marijuana legalization rapidly encroaching across the US. (what a shock considering our current Administration stood on the shoulders of the Legalize Pot crowd for votes. Also, let’s not forget about NAMBLA as well (nice group of fella’s there too!)).

5. Czars, Czars everywhere!!! Including our school Czar, Kevin Jennings, who has publicly stated his affection for NAMBLA (North America Man Boy Love Association) (yeah, that’s right! A group that promotes and adores pedophilic gay sex!) Please note this gem:

“In this one case in which Mr. Jennings had a real chance to protect a young boy from a sexual predator, he not only failed to do what the law required but actually encouraged the relationship.

According to Mr. Jennings’ own description in a new audiotape discovered by Fox News, the 15-year-old boy met the "older man" in a "bus station bathroom" and was taken to the older man’s home that night. When some details about the case became public, Mr. Jennings threatened to sue another teacher who called his failure to report the statutory rape "unethical." Mr. Jennings’ defenders asserted that there was no evidence that he was aware the student had sex with the older man.

However, the new audiotape contradicts this claim. In 2000, Mr. Jennings gave a talk to the Iowa chapter of the Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network, an advocacy group that promotes homosexuality in schools. On the tape, Mr. Jennings recollected that he told the student to make sure "to use a condom" when he was with the older man.” (Courtesy of www.sweetness-light.com)

This seems more and more to be about Good vs. Evil rather than Democrat vs. Republican. How is it that a candidate that embraces ney, PROMOTES death to children and our seniors (those he finds unimportant to our populace as a whole) gets elected? Why would any Conservative want homosexuality rampant in our Churches, Government and Schools? I don’t believe they do. Folks, I don’t think this is about politics so much anymore.

I have a friend who called into the show I produce when we had Ann Coulter on air and made a statement that I feel is just so powerful that I am posting the audio here so you can hear it as well. Give it a listen and tell me what it does to your Conservative, Christian heart when he speaks about his summary of liberalism please.

Ephesians 6:12 states: For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places].

So is this so much about the 2 party paradigm or good vs. evil? It is time that we Christians need to gird our loins with the whole armor of God and prepare for full-scale battle. Is the advent of the Czech Republic signing onto the Lisbon Treaty, that in essence has now put into place the Revived Roman Empire, or the Alignment of the Nations coming into place with Turkey announcing it’s alignment with Syria, Egypt, Iran and Libya telling us something? It’s telling us that what has been prophesied in the Word of God in Daniel, Ezekiel, Isaiah and Revelation is about to come too pass.

Love and Lawn Care

We were back in Ohio this weekend visiting with my family and I had a chance to see something that really choked me up. For several months my mother’s dog (a shih-tzu (insert all jokes here)) has struggled with a flea and itching issue that drives the poor little dog insane. Seems our little feisty girl Missy, is super sensitive to fleas and anything else that gets on her skin as well. Missy is a great dog and my mom’s constant companion. She gives nothing but love and adoration to my parent’s, but she has lost her bed sleeping privileges due to the constant itching. From costly medicines to bathing treatments and frontline plus, my Mom has tried it all and still Missy’s issue persists.

At the suggestion of a woman at work, my Mother purchased a bag of Ortho flea and insect killing seed for the yard. Determined to help her little pup out, she donned her yard work clothing and outdoors she headed. However, this weekend was a rainy one and as I watched my Mom dutifully put down the seed, the sight I wasn’t prepared to see choked me up. Behind my Mother with a giant umbrella shadowing each step so as not one drop of water to fall upon her head was my Father. He shielded her every move as she moved about the yard.

As I sat and watched this I found a lump in my throat a mile wide as I saw with my eyes what almost 50 years of marriage really looks like. There was no asking from my Mother for his help, he just did it because. I realized then and there all the bull I had been fed since my youth by the media about love was BUNK. For all the passion we are told we are to have for our spouse 25/8 (oh yes, overkill) there is very rarely mentioned the smallest things that show the greatest love and dedication. We are too be handsome, strong, in great shape and sexually potent like an 18 year old boy if we are men and as women, heaven forbid we have a poochy tummy from childbirth or a simple wrinkle from all the laughter we have shared with friends and family. No, we are to wipe that memory our face keeps for us at the first sign. We are to be forever young.

I don’t know about you, but when I was young, I was pretty stupid. I was stupid about love, life and responsibility and commitment. I believed what I was fed and when it didn’t fit the fairytale, I was out of there. I had allowed myself to believe the hype. It was BIG BIG BIG. Small things were no longer treasured, they are assumed. Seems we have turned into a romantic culture of “you have to do this” versus “thank you so much for caring enough to do that”. We are breeding a culture of self centered, ungrateful brats who have no sense of what real love is anymore. We think it’s a pretty face, or great ab’s or “bling”. Again, what that person can give to us versus what we have to offer them in return. We as women are the sex kittens and you as men are the moneymakers. You cannot control your cheating ways and we cannot be pretty enough, smart enough or have enough material possessions to keep up with everyone else. What a cunning distraction for us to be reared with in the media! If you make a generation believe that this is all there is, then you effectively destroy the family and without the family bond and strength, you destroy the nation.

Nancy Pelosi, Cher, Joan Rivers can have all the botox in the world injected into their now misshapen and frightening faces, but when they wake up in the morning, they are still in their senior years physically. The heart is weak, the eyes are blurry and the mind is not the steel trap it once was. The urges of youth no longer pump through older veins with the fervency it once did. Same with men, David Hasselhoff, Bruce Jenner along with Kenny Rogers are now misshapen scary looking old men trying desperately to hold onto a virility long past. All the PR in the world cannot change the REAL truth.

I feel sorry for these people for I wonder if Nancy feels bad for tearing apart the American Family Unit and if Cher and her multiple failed relationships and Joan’s anger truly are as satisfying as watching my two older parents comfort, care and commit to one another as this, another new phase of their life together begins.

Thanks Mom and Dad for once again showing me what it’s all about without ever uttering a word.

I love you both and John thanks for being my rock and being willing to let me be the same for you as well. Lord willing one of our 5 will write this about us one day too.